INERTIA

I start all fresh every morning. I slide the curtains to see the bright rays penetrating my room. I look at myself in the mirror and feel that its gonna be a great day.. sure it will..

I meet my friends,have a fun-filled day(exception sometimes:) ),mimic teachers and comment about all the fashion outcasts and strange sights i get to see. I 'll be so grateful for such a wonderful day. But when i enter my room back again in the evening, I realise that the show is all over.My reflection doesn't beam at me. Nor do my open windows add any intensity to the room. I lie down and wonder if i'm feeling sick or if its a mood swing. As twilight breaks, the feeling goes skin deep and the mood of loneliness sets in. I convine myself that its only because my friends aren't around. pause.. and then I realise that i've felt lonely even before. Even when I'm in a crowded hall or for that matter even when i'm sitting with my friends.
I read a quote somewhere. It said "Man can adapt himself to any emotion but not loneliness".I think I agree to that.
But as the skies turn darker and my toughts branch wider and deeper I feel that its not just loneliness. There's something missing!Something unexplainable but feels very essential, something far off but I might reach it if i just raise my hand enough..
After all that thought I still dont realise what it is. There's no such undying passion about anything or extreme interest or "I can even die for it" kind of emotion. Facts just stay facts. Objects are just objects. I dont see anything beyond.
And finally I'm still left with the emptiness and the inertia of life which pulls me into a cycle of another bright day and an introspective night,always hoping that I'd definitely find answers the next day..